yeah, I would I place where I can type out my feeling, not for people to feel sorry for me, but more for the ones I have in my life now get to see a side of my life they didnt know when I’m gone.
I don’t think I was mean to be born in this time. Or maybe not at all. Life can be lonely sometimes, specially when you give to much importance to those who dont deserve it. But then agian is my falut for allowing that, I let people into my life so easily and so far everyone had hurt me. I cry almost everyday for the past 2 years. I thought it was going to go away but it hasnt and it just getting worse. Now all the close friends that i had are all gone. not becuase there are bad friends or we hate each other but becuase they finally found that one thing that we all seach for and sadly now everyone can have, that feeling called LOVE.
my journey to adqure love has ended. Today was the last hope i had at it. it wasnt even a hope i had because he never thought of me as just another FUCK.!
30 should be when my heart needs to stop beucase going further would be torture. Im almost there.
"sueño, un sueño yo vivi,!!!!!
My heart literally hurts right now! :-/ don’t know how much of this depression I can handle! Life isn’t what I thought it would be , chingada :)
I hate taking about myself because I’m ashamed of who I am! I hate going out cuz I’m ashamed of people looking at me! I’m hate looking at myself in the mirror cuz I’m ashamed of what I look like I hate hearing my voice cuz I’m ashamed of what I sound! Can’t remember the last time I was happy! And even of that I’m ashamed!